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These entries are so shallow and factual lately but I don't care. I don't feel like writing.

It has been a really crumby past couple of days.

I've just been breaking down a lot, losing it, losing sleep, losing weight.

I've lost a lot of hope and that childish sense of security. I walked my parents to the elevator and began silently sobbing as the elevator doors closed and I walked back to my apartment alone. I just felt empty and I knew that their arms no longer would ever fill me up the way they use to. I stood outside the door looking up begging the tears to flow back from whence they came. I composed myself, I opened the door and he was standing there. "Oh no, what's wrong," he said his face melting warmly at my fragility. He knew, without hesitation or thought, he just knew like instinct. No matter how hard I fought or tried to hide it, he felt it.

I just started to cry again and he held my body close to his. I felt safe and warm again.

He is my security now.

Bed

Head.

I looked like this when I woke up...and now the circles under my eyes make it looked like I have black eyes.

I spent the night curled in an up-right fetal position, wedge in the corner of the couch again.

I feel like I'm sick at least once a week.

I know a lot of it has to be my diet. No matter what I do, I can't change. I need to just have someone force me, because I have no self control.

I need to take control over my life or the doctors are right, I'm going to keep getting more and more sick.

Stupid

Best Boyfriend Ever

7.0mm Cultured Freshwater Pearl Loop Pendant in 14k White Gold with Diamond Accent

The nicest thing I've ever received.

Normally I do not like fancy, girly things, but this one means a lot to me and I love it.

Future Husband

I want these to be our wedding rings.

Tonight

Mouse In Jello

Happy April Fools

I Need To Learn

To not look at the ten day weather.

Just look at today's...it's all we have.