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I have well over a hundred photos to post…why does this suddenly feel so daunting? I’ll post tomorrow.
The places I’ve been and the things I’ve done in the past two days:
Thursday
*Naperville (Girls night out)
Friday*Elmhurst (Cut down a tree for my grammy)
*Andersonville (bought a slurpee, drank outta my moo cup, and petted dogs)
*Sheridan stop (Shawn, Max, Evan, and Devin’s…and Siera, Lauren, and Carrie’s)
*Fullerton stop (transfer to stupid bus that took forever)
*Logan square (hung out in bar with drunk people and watched Shawn play)
Saturday
*Andersonville (woke up spooning with a daschund named Scamp)
*South loop (took a train)
*Naperville (sat in grass outside of station and saw Geoffey…his car died…bad things happen to such good people)
I spent tonight being tackled by two three year old girls screaming, “Emmy!” And playing risk and talking about the war in Iraq with a ten year old. They all went to bed though and that’s the worse when you’re watching kids. I hate just sitting alone…but this time it was okay. I watched Breakfast At Tiffany’s and fanaticized…it was bittersweet to say the least, shortly followed by Harold And Maude…a personal favorite always and forever.
Now I’m home documenting all this so I can look at this a week from now and remember what I actually did…if you read this whole thing you must be a good friend…thank you for that I hope I return that kind of friendship to you!
P.S. The moon is the lowest in the sky that it will ever be in this year. I went on a tiny walk all alone in the darkness and examined it...it did seem to be so...the smokey smell of outdoors just reminded me how alone I really am sometimes...ew downer...remind me to remain indoors from now on when it's dark.
*Went to the doctor today and I'm not dying really!
*Hung out with all the girls last night and felt like I was 14 again (pics from that soon)
*Today heading in to hang out with Lauren
*Tonight going to the boys and watching Shawny play
*Tomorrow Max comes home!
*Sunday Tony is coming here!
*Going to help Nyssa paint in the near future.
*Brian is a cool dude.
Life is swell
The days have been bizarre and lonesome lately. Surrounded by one, none, or many, I always feel enclosed in a bubble of misunderstanding and isolation. Conversations suddenly are muffled vibrations ricocheting in the canals of my head and thunderstorms are merely the proper soundtrack to my mood. It is funny though, in all of this I feel I’m reaching a higher and happier point in my life. As if I am at the bottom of a dark and cool ocean floor peering up at the sun-sparkled surface. Though I am surrounded by my self-constructed darkness I can smile knowing that happiness is just beyond the surface and all I have to do is swim.
I lost a little weight again and I think its because I haven’t been eating much. I’ve only been eating quesadillas, fruity pebbles, and wild berries. I’m so grateful for my dad in teaching me at a young age all about the plants of this earth. I love walking around outside and being able to eat and nibble at the plant life surrounding me without wondering if I’ll become ill. Today I ate mulberries, raspberries, plums, and wild strawberries (not nearly as sweet as the kind from the store but a good source of water). I used to also grow grapes but some tree-cutter-men broke the vine to bits.
While picking mulberries I set a few aside and I’m going to try and paint with them. They do stain other fabric so well…why not canvas? I think I might try and paint with all kinds of berries and maybe even other food-ish things (ketchup and mustard). I haven’t painted in awhile and I want to get back to it. I’m sure someone else must have done this before but still I’m excited about it. That’s the funny thing about art…everyone can do the same thing and it will turn out differently.
Speaking of which…a lot of people are making photo blogs now. I’ve had a photo blog in some form since sophomore year (thank you ujournal and livejournal) but watching everyone start making there own has been so exciting. I know some people are getting angry by this new fad catching on but I don’ t think that should be so. All great artists were generally inspired by those before them…lets inspire one another. I hope something I’ve done has motivated at least one other person, its what I strive for, to inspire and to instill understanding through imagery. Anyways, I’m excited you’re all making attempts at self expression, let me know and I’d love to look at your work…you’ll probably end up exciting me into a new idea or take on things.
There has been very little writing lately and I apoligize for this.
I had been wanting to take photos and post them so badly but my dad took all my equpiment with him to Disney so now that I finally can take pictures I've been going nuts posting and haven't been writing like I did in earlier entries.
I'll get back to it soon...and hopefully the ratio of writing to image will even out soon!
P.S. Thanks for all the outside feedback guys!
