Looking Up

The days have been bizarre and lonesome lately. Surrounded by one, none, or many, I always feel enclosed in a bubble of misunderstanding and isolation. Conversations suddenly are muffled vibrations ricocheting in the canals of my head and thunderstorms are merely the proper soundtrack to my mood. It is funny though, in all of this I feel I’m reaching a higher and happier point in my life. As if I am at the bottom of a dark and cool ocean floor peering up at the sun-sparkled surface. Though I am surrounded by my self-constructed darkness I can smile knowing that happiness is just beyond the surface and all I have to do is swim.

I lost a little weight again and I think its because I haven’t been eating much. I’ve only been eating quesadillas, fruity pebbles, and wild berries. I’m so grateful for my dad in teaching me at a young age all about the plants of this earth. I love walking around outside and being able to eat and nibble at the plant life surrounding me without wondering if I’ll become ill. Today I ate mulberries, raspberries, plums, and wild strawberries (not nearly as sweet as the kind from the store but a good source of water). I used to also grow grapes but some tree-cutter-men broke the vine to bits.

While picking mulberries I set a few aside and I’m going to try and paint with them. They do stain other fabric so well…why not canvas? I think I might try and paint with all kinds of berries and maybe even other food-ish things (ketchup and mustard). I haven’t painted in awhile and I want to get back to it. I’m sure someone else must have done this before but still I’m excited about it. That’s the funny thing about art…everyone can do the same thing and it will turn out differently.

Speaking of which…a lot of people are making photo blogs now. I’ve had a photo blog in some form since sophomore year (thank you ujournal and livejournal) but watching everyone start making there own has been so exciting. I know some people are getting angry by this new fad catching on but I don’ t think that should be so. All great artists were generally inspired by those before them…lets inspire one another. I hope something I’ve done has motivated at least one other person, its what I strive for, to inspire and to instill understanding through imagery. Anyways, I’m excited you’re all making attempts at self expression, let me know and I’d love to look at your work…you’ll probably end up exciting me into a new idea or take on things.